The Kiss
Thinking about that moment that you remember was special is different to a new couple, divorcée or widow.
Kissing for instance. With your true love, it is deep and passionate. You are drowning in each other's passion.
To your past detached love, it's a memory despised because it brings up hurt.
To a love who can not return that kiss, it's a yearning and a dreamy memory.
The only common thing is
the day you were as one.
Why did these things turn your world upside down?
Once done it will never return. There must be a
plan. Stay forever, leave for another or mourn.
Each day you are responsible for your own happiness and for that of whom you profess your love.
Cathy Windham
7/30/14
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Why We Care
The difference between
Home town and military brat
Always Starting Over
Taking risks between present/past
Keeping up
Bucking up
Survivorship
Get over it
Fitting in
Commitment
Saying goodbye
Being accepted
Do I belong
Hoarding momentous
Do you remember me
War vs Peace
Purpose vs dreams
Stereotype behaviors
Why is it important to be
Proud, be honest, have integrity
Shirt off your back for a fellow brat
Perfectionism vs praise of
Individuality - control issues of a military parent
Trust vs harboring secrets
Burying emotions
Watching from a distance
Making decisions not to
"rock the boat"
Applying everything to who I am professionally
Realizing you fit in that
round hole
Smiles look the same on all faces
Kisses linger longer when they might be the last
Promises of reuniting in the future
Getting older together and not worried about it
There you are in my world again
I missed you so.....
Cathy Windham
7/20/14
Home town and military brat
Always Starting Over
Taking risks between present/past
Keeping up
Bucking up
Survivorship
Get over it
Fitting in
Commitment
Saying goodbye
Being accepted
Do I belong
Hoarding momentous
Do you remember me
War vs Peace
Purpose vs dreams
Stereotype behaviors
Why is it important to be
Proud, be honest, have integrity
Shirt off your back for a fellow brat
Perfectionism vs praise of
Individuality - control issues of a military parent
Trust vs harboring secrets
Burying emotions
Watching from a distance
Making decisions not to
"rock the boat"
Applying everything to who I am professionally
Realizing you fit in that
round hole
Smiles look the same on all faces
Kisses linger longer when they might be the last
Promises of reuniting in the future
Getting older together and not worried about it
There you are in my world again
I missed you so.....
Cathy Windham
7/20/14
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Am I sleeping or awake?
It is who I am
The day starts easily enough after a seemingly
sleepless night. It's gone on like this for awhile.
Silently I cringe a little as I slip into bed on my side. The other side does not get turned down or slept upon.
I do some things differently. Play some background sounds to lull my mind away from my thoughts.
I time the night in increments of how long I dozed off. I try not to care what time it is.
My dreams are like previews of a movie I don't want to star in.
The plot is obscure and makes no sense. I'm shocked not to find clipped edited film on my bedroom floor as I get up.
When the sun comes up
I start the day over. I'm
older and wiser and
chronically tired.
It is who I am for now.
Cathy Windham
7/1/14
The day starts easily enough after a seemingly
sleepless night. It's gone on like this for awhile.
Silently I cringe a little as I slip into bed on my side. The other side does not get turned down or slept upon.
I do some things differently. Play some background sounds to lull my mind away from my thoughts.
I time the night in increments of how long I dozed off. I try not to care what time it is.
My dreams are like previews of a movie I don't want to star in.
The plot is obscure and makes no sense. I'm shocked not to find clipped edited film on my bedroom floor as I get up.
When the sun comes up
I start the day over. I'm
older and wiser and
chronically tired.
It is who I am for now.
Cathy Windham
7/1/14