Smiles held in the heart

Smiles held in the heart
Smiles held in the heart

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Am I sleeping or awake?

It is who I am

The day starts easily enough after a seemingly
sleepless night.  It's gone on like this for awhile.

Silently I cringe a little as I slip into bed on my side.  The other side does not get turned down or slept upon.

I do some things differently.  Play some background sounds to lull my mind away from my thoughts.

I time the night in increments of how long I dozed off.  I try not to care what time it is.

My dreams are like previews of a movie I don't want to star in.

The plot is obscure and makes no sense.  I'm shocked not to find clipped edited film on my bedroom floor as I get up.

When the sun comes up
I start the day over.  I'm
older and wiser and
chronically tired.

It is who I am for now.

Cathy Windham
7/1/14

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